finally
Posted by starrytrix at 06:17 PM

finally! the tigers won last sunday and boy, it was such a relief! i was kinda expecting the worse outcome this season, a 0-14 record, so that it won't be hard for me anymore. but lo and behold, they beat NU(hahaha) and clinched their first win. you see, others would probably laugh off this achievement since it was just only NU but i don't care. what matters is that they won and i know it'll be the start of a new beginning. that's how optimistic i am. and i don't understand why.

i am happy. i am beginning to see a different aspect of myself. and i am loving it.

kwentong mrt: yesterday, i went galleria and i rode the mrt. while i was waiting in line, i noticed this guy who was standing beside the entrance of the station. he was wearing a light blue lacoste shirt and a pair of white lacoste rubber shoes. im not sure if his pants are of the same brand also but one thing's for sure: he's into lacoste! anyway, being the uber-observant that i am, i noticed that he kept on glancing at me from time to time. good thing i was wearing a cap and shades, he did not realize that i was observing him too. funny thing is that he kept on checking his shirt and rubber shoes for dirt or i don't know. after that, he brought out his P900 and checked if there were any messages. and he did that while looking at me! you know, he's trying to catch my attention by flashing his "astig" phone and his branded shoes. the typical tactic that guys usually execute just to be noticed. i mean c'mon, im not the type who would befriend a guy just because he's rich or something. and that style is oh-so last tuesday! he's really nakakatawa. or better yet, nakakaawa.


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goin' crazy
Posted by starrytrix at 04:37 PM

Ever since the day you went away
And left me lonely and cold
My life just hasn't been the same
Oh baby no
When I looked into your eyes
The moment that I let you go I just broke down (down)

Baby if I ever get the chance to be with you again I would sacrifice
'Cause the feelin that I feel within no other man
Would ever make me feel so right

It's nice to smile when I get your phone call at night
But I'd rather have you here with me
Right next to me
And I miss the way you hold me tight

I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I've gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world for you
I'd do anything

That's right baby
I'm goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

That's right baby
Im goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

Break it down now I'll tell you what I feel
From the moment that I met you it's been so damn real
My heart seems to skip another beat every time we speak
Can't believe I feel so weak
Tell me that you really need me
And you want me
And you miss me
And you love me
I'm your lady
I'll be around waiting for you
Put it down be the woman for you
I'm falling so deep for you
Crazy over you I'm calling
Callin' out to you
What am I gonna do?
It's true no frontin'
It's you ain't no other
I can no longer go on without you
I'll just break down (down)

I've got to let you know I feel so weak without your touch
I never thought that I could ever love a man so much
I've gotta let you know I think that we are destiny
For you I'd cross the world for you
I'd do anything

That's right baby
I'm goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

That's right baby
I'm goin' crazy
I need to be your lady
I've been thinking lately
That you and me, yes we can make it
Just ride with me, roll with me
I'm in love with you (baby)

this is the song that's currently lurking in my head. i don't know but i've been listening to it for almost an hour na. well, i usually play a song over and over whenever i feel happy or when i feel like im in love (how cliche!). but right now, im not that in love. im again in this phase wherein i am not certain on who "makes my heart beats faster and slower at the same time"(sounds familiar, eh?). it's just that the guy i am currently attached to lacks something. my peer pressure friends(hello meri and abi!) know what happened between us and that incident pushed me to restrict myself from falling for him again. i have my reasons for acting this way. it isn't easy to entrust your feelings to someone who made you cry already. but then he's now making up for whatever he did before. i know i STILL LIKE him. and i am happy that we're beginning to know each other unlike before when we just got carried away with our friends' teasing. i actually enjoy spending time with him but i am uncertain if it's for real this time. i am just confused right now. and scared as well. because i don't wanna get hurt(for the nth time) again. punyeta.
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un-
Posted by starrytrix at 01:49 PM

i did the unthinkable, the unimaginable and unbearable(you can even include all the words bearing the prefix un)!

early this morning, i was talking(thru text) to this guy(check out my previous entry for reference,hehe) who apparently doesn't understand the meaning of the word "seriousness". he kept on making silly remarks contrary to my serious comments. at first, it was tolerable because i still find it funny. but then we were already talking about something uber serious(so serious that it made my palms sweat like hell!) and he made this frivolous remark again and this time, it really irked me! and so what i did was i told him that i still like him! i think it stunned him because his reply was "ah...speechless ako. cge, maaga ka pa tom. eh. sweetdreams" that was the first time i bluntly told a guy my real feelings for him. and i don't know what came into me. how come guys don't take girls seriously? i mean, i was already on the verge of really liking him but then this incident occurred and it gave me second thoughts if i should still give him a 2nd chance. and i don't know if i'd still take him seriously and believe all the things he's been telling me. nakakainis talaga, when would i be really taken seriously by someone?!
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labo
Posted by starrytrix at 01:32 PM

i am in this weird state again. i am out of synch, apparently still in a desperate mode.

but after thinking really hard about this thing that has been bugging me for so many days, i finally realized that i am not yet ready to plummet into a rabbit-hole that would probably be full of uncertainties and predicaments. i am afraid that it just wouldn't work. i am finally conceding to the thought that i haven't found the right one yet. maybe i just got too excited that's why i started imagining things.

right now, i am just concentrating on achieving my goals. that way, i would be very busy. too busy to think about things that aren't just good for me. if somebody intersects, then we'll just see.
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good vibes and natural high
Posted by starrytrix at 03:05 PM

hooray for brownman revival! its official, their album's out already and they're finally getting a whiff of that much-deserved fame.

last saturday, i watched bmr's gig at 70's Bistro and boy, i was so surprised! the place was packed and i noticed new faces among the crowd. you see, i've been an enthusiast(ok, a fan!) long since they performed at our right of passage(remember nung 1st year?!). and because of that, i started watching their gigs at xaymaca and 70's. every friday(but because of lrt, i've been lethargic), my bmr buddies and I would troop to xaymaca and dance the night away. right, we had this friday habit and it was quite addictive. friday nights are reggae party nights! and so we became familiar with the crowd also but no, we're not friends with everybody. we just know who's who and that's enough for us to distinguish who are the real bmr crowd and those who are not. anyway, after an exhausting week due to the prelims, i decided to watch them last saturday. ok, i was not kidding when i said the place was packed because it really was! the last time they had their gig at 70's(last march, i think), there were only 5-7 tables occupied unlike last saturday. gawd, they are now popular. imagine, there were even shrieking girls who rushed to the stage just so they could have a picture with dino(lead vocalist). hehe, iba talaga appeal ni dino!

though im a house(music) afficionado, reggae's no.2 in my comfort music list. i don't know but bmr's music eases me in a way. it's like im being transported into another world where you can just dance all your worries away. totally enthralling. but don't get me wrong, it's not because of the smoke(which is always incorporated with reggae), it's all about the rhythm and the beat. my favorites are their rendition of the only one, sharing the night together, i just don't wanna be lonely and their very own dahan-dahan. basta, their music's lively yet soothing. good vibes and natural high! that's why im encouraging you to get a copy of their album Steady Lang(hehe,free ad pa!) because its worth every penny! you can also watch their video Maling Akala at myx and i think their single's being aired na rin by some radio stations.

it really felt great. all the stress has been washed away in a night full of dancing and good vibes. good thing i have friends who are always in the mood for partying even if they were just offhandedly told. unlike others whom i invited a few days back who wasn't polite enough to inform me that he couldn't make it. i even saved a ticket for that person. blah. im getting tired of it already. you're so inconsiderate and you really upset me. so much for that, after bmr's gig, we stayed for a few minutes and talked with some people. then i noticed this long and white-haired man(probably in his late 50s) who was sitting near our table. he was talking with cookie chua when a group of girls approached him and asked for his autograph and picture. so i looked closely to see who that man was and i found out that it was THE Conrado de Quiros. boy, i couldn't believe it because i wasn't expecting to see him there. i mean, of all places di ba? but anyway, being a real fan and an avid reader of his column there's the rub, i immediately approached him and asked for his picture too! hehe, i was kinda shy at first but i wouldn't let that opportunity pass just like that! so you see, i was twice a fan that night, to brownman revival and de quiros. and despite the disappointment "that person" gave me last saturday, i still had reasons to enjoy the night!

*over a tall mango tea frapp and a bag of Cheetos Flamin Hot, i realized that i am still in love. but im not sure with whom. basta, im still in the mood for love but not necessarily in love with someone. get it?

this is brownman revival's album(go get a copy!)
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and this moi with THE conrado de quiros(whatta fan!)

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team-building
Posted by starrytrix at 02:17 PM

i had fun last night. my classmates and i had a "team-building" session(as id rather call it) at asturias. we drank and joked and joked some more. and sir jere even joined us and ordered sisig for us! saya talaga!

you see, im so pleased that 4JRN1's been really nice to me since the day i was transferred to their class(ok, drama mode on!). i never thought id get along with them but i was wrong. cheers for more team-building sessions!

*ma'am marie's very pretty yesterday...lalalala...haayy...*wink*
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movie madness
Posted by starrytrix at 09:26 PM

watching movies alone might sound a bit weird for others. but not for me! actually, i consider it as one of my blissful moments because it relaxes me so much. it's the perfect moment when i can just enjoy and disregard annoying remarks that other people usually blurt out while watching movies. so 2 saturdays ago, i watched charlie and the chocolate factory and boy, it was an awesome movie! im even eager to get a copy of the soundtrack album. all the chocolate made me drool and i must agree with mitch that johnny depp's uber handsome! gawd, he's gorgeous! but the oompa-loompas(though the old oompa-loompas are creepier) still scared the hell out of me! they looked like a gazillion of berting labras cramping the screen. still, the movie reminded me of my childhood and it was really sweet. you know, im still intact with inner child despite my having a corrupted mind!

ok, so after the lonesome chocolatey experience, i watched a movie alone again this afternoon. i watched the sisterhood of the traveling pants. at first, i thought it was just a now and then wannabe but i was wrong. each of the 4 girls had interesting stories that are actually realistic. there are even touching scenes that made me sob a bit.

now i can't wait for harry potter and the goblet of fire to hit the theaters!
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here i go again
Posted by starrytrix at 08:31 PM

i shouldn't be talking about this/him anymore but since i cannot contain my emotions, i might as well blurt this out.

i never thought i'd see him again because based on my instincts, he's been avoiding me since that unfateful night. i know when a person's avoiding me or not and in his case, it's a no-brainer at all! he's probably feeling guilty for what he did that's why he instantly disappeared into thin air. and a week after that incident, he apologized for not showing up and told me that he'll make up for it. come on, i'm so tired of hearing promises. if you think i'd fall for that, you're dead wrong. gawin mo na lang, mas matutuwa pa ako. after that, i told myself that he's not for real, that everything about him was a misapprehension, a joke.

however, when i saw him again this afternoon, i cannot understand why i still feel affected. when i passed by him, his friends made comments but he ignored them. i ignored them too. and so while i was talking to some people, i can't help stealing a few glances at him. good thing nobody noticed that. and now im snooping around if he's already involved with a "new" one. i shouldn't be doing this but surprisingly, im doing it. im trying to flush him out of my system but it seems that i can't do it. i actually miss the late night texting marathon and phone calls but there's still this cloud of doubt on top of me. i hate it when im feeling like this, it's absolutely confusing!

anyway, it's kt's birthday today! happy birthday my dear kt, hope to see you soon! love, love you
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