vday thoughts
Posted by starrytrix at 02:29 PM

it was a good thing that i surpassed all the puffery and tension of cupid's day with the company of friends and a few songs. well actually, my day did not start right. i encountered a few mishaps while i was on my way to school(i tripped thrice). and much worse, i crossed paths with a dozen or more couples who were sweetly cuddling each other(ugh, i need love!) and savoring vday! there were also some guys who were carrying big bouquets and chocolates, obviously for their special someone. no, don't get me wrong. i am not being bitter nor green with envy(well, maybe a little!). honestly, i feel happy for those sweet couples because apparently, i'm still (secretly) wishing to see myself in their place someday(now it's not a secret anymore!). yeah, call me a romantic fool but there's no other way to describe me best. and that's one reason why i'm a bit reluctant on celebrating that dreaded day. i keep on saying that i do believe in ever afters because i know i deserve to have one. i won't deny the fact that I DO get lonely upon realizing that i'm not with anybody right now. it's a bit hazy and lonely being solitary. at times, it feels good because you can be free and peaceful but most of the time, its the contrary. awfully sad.

though my day was oddly hapless, i still enjoyed it because somehow, a handful of people completed my vday and the day after. i'm really grateful, i'm lost for words.
1. jara, for hanging out with me at the eve of vday and sharing wonderful and inspiring stories. truly one of my coffee buds!
2. daisy and meri, for giving me chocolates! yey, it was so sweet of you guys.
3. chuckie, for giving me flowers! nyahahaha=)
4. glai,kc,leng,mariz,meri&chuckie, for watching dirty dancing 2 with me(gawd, diego's really hot!)
5. lili(my safeguard), for our post-vday celebration. also for listening to all my kilig stories and again, feeding me with your words of wisdom.
6. for those who greeted me(abi,donn,madz,dek&deeg), thanks for remembering guys! you just don't know how much it means to me.

so there, i survived vday with less sadness and tears(unlike the previous ones). it's a good thing that there's this term "hope" for fools like me. i'm still counting on a better vday next year.

*what would you do if you suddenly plummets into a self-made rabbit hole of chaos that it's not even in your plan? would you dig deeper or get out of it as fast as you could?

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